The question of why

I've been hearing the same question over and over again lately. 

Why?

Why do I have to wait?

Why is this so hard?

Why can't my marriage just be whole again, NOW?

Why would I have to wait for years for God to do what I have been asking for?

I have a problem with this question.  The problem is that I do not have an answer.  I wish that I did.  I wish that I could reach out to all the hurting spouses who are home alone, waiting on their husband or wife to leave their life of sin and return home where they belong, and tell them WHEN God would answer their prayers.  I wish that I could somehow demand God to work a miracle in their lives and marriages.  But, God doesn't work that way, and me making demands on your behalf isn't what he has called me to do.  He has, however, called me to pray for you, which I will faithfully honor.

All that I can do, in an attempt to soothe some of the hurt in your heart is remind you that God never leaves us, and share a couple of songs that have helped me to remember that when I don't understand, God is still there.  I can encourage you to keep hoping, keep praying, keep trusting the only one who can work a miracle in your marriage.

Don't give up!

Be still, and know that I am God!
I will be honored by every nation.
I will be honored throughout the world.
Psalm 46:10

Rush of Fools, "Escape"

Jason Gray, "This Far"

The first time I heard You call my name
I saw the man that I could be
My life was like a gift that You gave to me
But now I’m haunted by the memory of
A promise I thought I heard from You
And I’m not as sure of all the things I thought that I once knew

But I don’t believe You brought me this far
to give up
So everyday I keep on fighting for it
Show me again what I was made for
Help me to see
How You’re moving me

It’s hard for me to walk by faith
In the face of all that I can see
Sometimes I fear I’m just a fool for my belief
But then I feel You come and move in me
I hear You whisper in my ear
And for a moment I can see just how You brought me here

And I don’t believe You brought me this far to give up
So everyday I keep on fighting for it
Show me again what I was made for
Help me believe You’re still moving me
With each passing glimpse of Your promise
You’re leading me on
Don’t let me falter now…

I don’t believe You brought me this far
to give up
So everyday I keep on fighting for it
Sometimes it’s hard to tell if I’m faithful
Or a fool to believe
You’re still moving me

But I don’t believe You brought me this far
to give up
So everyday I keep on fighting for it
Show me again what I was made for
Help me to see
How You’re moving me
I still believe
Cause You’ve carried me this far

This Far - Jason Gray