Looking back

There is something to be said for looking back and reflecting on your life.  As I look back over 2012, I am both horrified and humbled by events that have taken place in my life.  Early in the year, I made a choice that I have yet to regret.  I came home.  It has been quite the journey, and even though there have been rough patches, I am blessed beyond measure.  My heart belongs to a man who truly loves me, just as I am.  He loved me when I was at my worst, when I was most unloveable.  He has sought to strengthen our marriage and make sure that I am taken care of, spiritually and emotionally (on top of financially).  We have had the best ten months together, learning how to be better spouses, and honor our marriage vows to one another.

While I'm Waiting

Unlike, Courageous (which I'm not saying wasn't a good movie), the movie Fireproof was very powerful for Kris and I.  Obviously, if you have seen it, you know that it addresses the topic of pornography.  A topic that practically ruined our marriage.  Don't get me wrong. I'm not blaming Kris or saying that my affair was a direct result of his addiction.  I'm just saying that had another man not come along, something else would have pushed me to say "I've had enough.  I'm done putting up with this."

Playing With Fire

My heart hurts this morning.

I see things.  I read them or hear them.  And they break my heart.

You cannot understand this pain if you cannot relate to it.

I can relate to it.

Playing with fire, as we should all know, is extremely dangerous.

You could get too close and get burned.