There is something to be said for looking back and reflecting on your life. As I look back over 2012, I am both horrified and humbled by events that have taken place in my life. Early in the year, I made a choice that I have yet to regret. I came home. It has been quite the journey, and even though there have been rough patches, I am blessed beyond measure. My heart belongs to a man who truly loves me, just as I am. He loved me when I was at my worst, when I was most unloveable. He has sought to strengthen our marriage and make sure that I am taken care of, spiritually and emotionally (on top of financially). We have had the best ten months together, learning how to be better spouses, and honor our marriage vows to one another.
I saw a quote the other day from the Intentionally Yours Facebook page, that I really loved:
"Don't abandon the marriage because you don't 'feel' the love now. It was for this very season you each spoke the vows...I will not forsake thee." -Marriage Works
I truly understand the meaning of that, and am grateful to have been given not only a second chance at my marriage, but at life in general. I still fail. I still make mistakes. But I am healthier and exactly where I need to be. I have learned what true confidence means, the kind that can only come from understanding who I am in Christ. I no longer wrestle (except on very rare occasions) with low self-esteem, and I am faithful to my husband in all ways. 2012 was a big year for me, and for my marriage, and while there is pain in remembering, there is also so much joy.
I am forever grateful to God, to my husband, to Tony our counselor and pastor, and a myriad of other people who have touched my life and heart along this journey. I never dreamed I could feel as complete and whole as I do, sitting here today. God is so good, and has given me far more than I deserve.
I look forward to what 2013 holds, and pray that I have the courage and strength to continue living in the light. There is no better place to be!
I saw a quote the other day from the Intentionally Yours Facebook page, that I really loved:
"Don't abandon the marriage because you don't 'feel' the love now. It was for this very season you each spoke the vows...I will not forsake thee." -Marriage Works
I truly understand the meaning of that, and am grateful to have been given not only a second chance at my marriage, but at life in general. I still fail. I still make mistakes. But I am healthier and exactly where I need to be. I have learned what true confidence means, the kind that can only come from understanding who I am in Christ. I no longer wrestle (except on very rare occasions) with low self-esteem, and I am faithful to my husband in all ways. 2012 was a big year for me, and for my marriage, and while there is pain in remembering, there is also so much joy.
I am forever grateful to God, to my husband, to Tony our counselor and pastor, and a myriad of other people who have touched my life and heart along this journey. I never dreamed I could feel as complete and whole as I do, sitting here today. God is so good, and has given me far more than I deserve.
I look forward to what 2013 holds, and pray that I have the courage and strength to continue living in the light. There is no better place to be!
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