Monday, October 21, 2013

My Heart Is His

I have had an emotional weekend, to say the least.  It began on Saturday with a gruelling counseling session.  Afterward, Kris and I spent some time talking and trying to work through this next phase in our healing.  It amazes me - just when I thought we had it all together, I am proved wrong.  We have come a long way, only because of God's grace, but it was a shock to me to realize just how much farther we had to travel on this journey.  We're trying to learn how to communicate with one another in a healthier way, and it may prove to be the most difficult trial of them all!

Marriage is hard.

No wonder a lot of people give up.

Thursday, October 17, 2013

Beautiful Things

I talk a lot about pain and using the pain in our lives to minister to others.  This past weekend, I had an opportunity to use my own pain, my own story, in a women's prison.  While it wasn't the first time I had given my testimony or shared my story with others, it was the first time I had done it alone (without Kris).  And it was definitely my first time entering a prison, let alone talking to a group of women.  It was really such an incredible experience.  I didn't write down everything I wanted to say and then read it.  Kris had helped me write an outline and I did have that up there with me, but really, I just talked.  Because I know the story already, I just stood up there and spoke from my heart.

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

It's Not About The Nail

These last two and a half weeks have been difficult to say the least.  I hope to write a post (eventually) with more detail on what all has kept me away from writing but for now, this will have to do.  Life has been chaotic and thrown our family some curves, but we are weathering through it.  Some changes have had to be made and are still in the process, but I feel like we are (God-willing) through the worst of those particular trials.  I'm ready to get back to writing, and hopefully I will be able to find a rhythm with writing again.  A promotion and new "normal" hours at work (instead of 10-hour days where I work until 7pm!) are going to put me in a position to make that a reality but right now I am just trying to adjust to the new schedule and balance the extra time I now have with my family.